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Alm… sacrificandu-se ptr o tema de-a mea

Dragos & Irina…

@Prue: var’tau asta e un tip f fain, imi place d el

@Irina: sa ne vedem si pe micile si pe marile ecrane
Sorin & Raluca

@Sorin: see u soon tinere

@Raluca: sa ma tzii minte cand prinzi reducerea aia la x360

That actually the posted picture (above) has a hidden msg incripted?:P

Hiya
thought I might as well share with u a speech I prepared for one of the Toastmasters meetings…
enjoy

Today I woke up terrified by one thing… that today I want to do one thing that scares me…
So… here I am

Ladies and gentleman, madam toastmasters… dear friends…. When do you actually let go?
Maybe when you feel defeated?
Maybe when you realize how much you are caring?
Maybe when you accept it…

Since 25 years now… I found it really difficult to let go… starting from my milk bottle to my first love…
Ok… let’s think about this one…
How many of you have been in a relationship so far?
How many of you have been madly in love?
How many of you found it really difficult to let go of it?…

I was never good at this… I always felt that it’s something that needs to be in my powers to keep a person close to me… Did not believe that just being quiet will solve anything… refused to accept that what Gabriel Garcia Marques was defining as “if someone does not love you like you want him/her to love you than it doesn’t mean that he/she does not love you from the bottom of his heart”

I remember now the first “letting go”…
Imagine a cold winter day…
quite windy…
naked trees around …
it was a park in the middle of an extremely circulated road… cars roaring…. A thousand colors around coming from either street lamps, or cars, or shops… or people smoking….
I remember the snow on the pavement…about 2 centimeters… and 4 foot prints on the road…behind them
Never could have they imagined that silence would be so loud!
4 steps
2 trams
And one sentence:
“I might regret this for the rest of my life”

The second “letting go” …
Was letting go of a life… because as much as I held his hand and tried to warm it up with mine… he did not open his eyes.
My mum always says that the dead should stay with the dead and the living should stay with the living… so I had to learn how to let go the idea that he’ll be back and accept that he’s always there… in the air… in the books that I read and in my mind.
After my grandfather died I felt a bit lost… felt like I did not give him enough recognition while he was alive… felt like I did not get to tell him so many… and more importantly felt like I did not listen enough.
I realized that I have to let go all this questions and start taking some action… so as I was telling a friend the other day… I feel like talking about him… keeping him alive…letting people know how special he was… because this is how he’ll become immortal…

The third letting go was a bit different …
That was a loud one… because a lot of people were involved
Massive energy… laughs… thoughts…dreams…traveling all over the world
This “letting go” was extremely passionate… it was about ideas which involved changing the world.
This is when I had to let go of shy Alma… of silence and unspoken thoughts.
This is when I made one of the wisest steps in my life… moving from comfort zone to massive challenges… letting go of bad habits and saying hello to a bright future.
This is when I joined THE student run ORG called AIESEC
It was letting go of normal student life… and start working on meaningful projects… start knowing the world.
So I never could say I had a usual student life… cause I wasn’t there too much… in the classes… in the dorm… that was either because I was out on the streets promoting some ideas or a project, or in some smelly train, economy class traveling from one corner of the country to the other with other 20 like myself…going to some personal development conference
So this letting go was about taking a massive risk, upsetting parents, breaking stereotypes and discovering myself

So be it… courage…being wise…mature… risk lover… letting go brought me good things… although I learned it the hard way…
It always still scares me…
So I have to do another scary thing right now… to let you go… cause my time is up…